(by morning when you're ready)

[aslant]

last night. giant dark winged insect creepy thing invaded my room, landed on the wall. crawled into the bed with me, under the pillows. i went mad, tore apart the entire bed to find it, to kill it. it moved too fast. i started awake a minute later (heart in throat) trying to remind myself silly, there are no bugs like that in boston. but still.

also i dreamt that carrie was buying her chex cereal. which she did, actually, this morning. i'm psychic. i tagged along with her in my dreams.

i have located n in ny. i am so pleased.

second dfci interview this afternoon.

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& so things are a little better even though guilt rides me like a nightmare these days. movies, commercials; everything echoes with me. i've lost that logical dividing line. but no more storms at night. no more dark & lost morass. hopefully.