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last night was the first night in two weeks that i slept alone, in my own bed. i have been sleeping at k's house since wednesday when the bed arrived, dreaming dreams almost sickening in their intensity. one in which c & i had a screaming fight & she called me developmentally retarded. it is disorienting, dreaming that much.

we went to see a mighty wind friday night. it was excellent. it was so fucking funny. god i needed a laugh.

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k has an interview today! so cross your internet fingers for him.

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in four days i'm going to smith for the two-year reunion. what is more pathetic: that i'm going, or that i have no one to go with? i have a laundry list of people to avoid when i get there, and most of them will be rooming in the same house with me. i hope hope hope leah or jen will be there. otherwise i will be lost, annoyed, alone. there is a virginia woolf conference thing all day saturday, which i am hoping will distract me.

or maybe i will just wander off in the woods and take oodles of pictures. we have to wear white in order to walk in the alumnae procession before commencement. i have a white eyelet lace skirt that spreads out wide from my hips. i will wear that. and since i can bleach it clean when i get home, can't i just go swim in the pond wearing it? take floating mermaid pictures? if walking upright and smiling becomes too much?

ha. i am pretending the campus will be empty enough to take pictures. it will be swarming with people, faces.

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