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hastings. ealing. westfield.
Aug. 2nd, 2001 10:16 amit is my birthday today tra la la.
grandma c sang to me on the phone last night with john and clarissa. grandma b called this morning to sing with grandpa. mom called. several emails of happy birthdays. and i opened my box and my card this morning on the phone with mr a, who was sweet on the phone as usual. sweet on me, too, i think.
very restless night. fell asleep in my dress and woke at midnight when jason was in the kitchen and i stumbled into pajamas, feeling blank and odd. in the eight o'clock hour, though, i enjoyed the porch and my view of the sky, as per usual. the chimneys and rooflines. my twilit kingdom. kept waking up, feeling like an adolescent christmas clock-watcher, and rolling back over because it was not time yet, it was not time yet. woke up precisely, eyes wide, the second before the phone rang. i know these things. in my blood, singing along by veins and nerve-endings the echo of the lines and wires on the street, intersections of energy and optics and racing across the sea came the phonecall. which i predicted perfectly.
the only mar to this morning: decided to satisfy my curiosity and finally let the scandisk scan its way through the c drive, which i usually exit out of. it took an entire hour. i read my plath. i was being so very very patient. and what did it do, when it finished? exited to a command line that gave me endless error messages. i am an illiterate dunce. so i rebooted and had to exit out of the scan as usual. stupid computer.
i will not think of it. i will think of the lovely day stretched out forward, clean and light and friendly and pure. and twenty-two. twenty-two. twenty-two today and forever.
grandma c sang to me on the phone last night with john and clarissa. grandma b called this morning to sing with grandpa. mom called. several emails of happy birthdays. and i opened my box and my card this morning on the phone with mr a, who was sweet on the phone as usual. sweet on me, too, i think.
very restless night. fell asleep in my dress and woke at midnight when jason was in the kitchen and i stumbled into pajamas, feeling blank and odd. in the eight o'clock hour, though, i enjoyed the porch and my view of the sky, as per usual. the chimneys and rooflines. my twilit kingdom. kept waking up, feeling like an adolescent christmas clock-watcher, and rolling back over because it was not time yet, it was not time yet. woke up precisely, eyes wide, the second before the phone rang. i know these things. in my blood, singing along by veins and nerve-endings the echo of the lines and wires on the street, intersections of energy and optics and racing across the sea came the phonecall. which i predicted perfectly.
the only mar to this morning: decided to satisfy my curiosity and finally let the scandisk scan its way through the c drive, which i usually exit out of. it took an entire hour. i read my plath. i was being so very very patient. and what did it do, when it finished? exited to a command line that gave me endless error messages. i am an illiterate dunce. so i rebooted and had to exit out of the scan as usual. stupid computer.
i will not think of it. i will think of the lovely day stretched out forward, clean and light and friendly and pure. and twenty-two. twenty-two. twenty-two today and forever.
