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Sep. 18th, 2001 03:00 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
aslantsomething's wrong. the body's revenge.
presistant growing ache of pain. something's out.of.joint. keep contorting. as if it will.help. somewhere in the midsection. among the bones. bull in the china shop of nerves: windpipe whippet clean. recall the drain tubing being pulled out from under skin after surgery. the feeling of a thing being removed at a fast sick slick speed from where no thing should be removed. song stuck in my head: i can take this in doses large enough to kill. i want to. but what's my motivation for wanting to call? to fix it? impossible.
so i sit i pense i escogito a bit. i bide my time. i resist. i don't cry and i don't speak. i writhe uneasy in my seat.
presistant growing ache of pain. something's out.of.joint. keep contorting. as if it will.help. somewhere in the midsection. among the bones. bull in the china shop of nerves: windpipe whippet clean. recall the drain tubing being pulled out from under skin after surgery. the feeling of a thing being removed at a fast sick slick speed from where no thing should be removed. song stuck in my head: i can take this in doses large enough to kill. i want to. but what's my motivation for wanting to call? to fix it? impossible.
so i sit i pense i escogito a bit. i bide my time. i resist. i don't cry and i don't speak. i writhe uneasy in my seat.
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Date: 2001-09-18 01:14 pm (UTC)Love,
Amanda