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Oct. 12th, 2001 02:22 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
aslantlunch with brian was
not as bad as it could have been. he is a decent person. we talked about how he can't believe he's a father already, and working a job and doing these things that seem to all fit together---and yet he still doesn't really know what it's all about. i laughed politely thinking:
dear god!
is it that bad? does anybody ever really know?
i don't have a burning desire to know anything right now, i just want a job i can care about. it is a slick trick that the world insists on making things difficult.
i remember times when things like this made sense. when there wasn't that spinny sensation of importantness that passes you by, you willing and mouth agape saying, that's not what i meant to happen at all, at all.
the time is two two two.
i skedaddle: i leave this job and this summer and this self behind like a scuttling empty shell.
not as bad as it could have been. he is a decent person. we talked about how he can't believe he's a father already, and working a job and doing these things that seem to all fit together---and yet he still doesn't really know what it's all about. i laughed politely thinking:
dear god!
is it that bad? does anybody ever really know?
i don't have a burning desire to know anything right now, i just want a job i can care about. it is a slick trick that the world insists on making things difficult.
i remember times when things like this made sense. when there wasn't that spinny sensation of importantness that passes you by, you willing and mouth agape saying, that's not what i meant to happen at all, at all.
the time is two two two.
i skedaddle: i leave this job and this summer and this self behind like a scuttling empty shell.
