tanks of nitrogen on the dock

[aslant]

you know you know you know don't you &
& i
i just don't, yet, do i?
i know you and still i don't. i sit here wasted with your silences.
i want you to tell me who you are.
i want you to erase what happened. if you don't mind i'll be the flash of thunder that erases you.
i want to go back and collapse into you when i had the chance. plead my case. make an effort. confess myself absolutely and absolvedly. make myself worthy for what i may be about to receive.

[& since it's all the rage lately:]

i want
i want wednesday to be over
i want it to be last thursday and i would go about it a little differently
i want
i want a quiet life a handshake some carbon monoxide
i want certain someones to solve their lives and make mine easier in the process
i want it easy
i want money [that's what i want]
i want the muffin man to call today and offer me 30k
i want
i want
i want
i want you & you & you again and again

i want a rich & oxygenated life
i want to cut out my hungers bodily from me

i want to get to the sugar bowl quickly, quietly, clean and neat.
i want a room neat as a pin
i want to know why my bones feel unstrung lately
i want to know what the copper taste means
i want to be landing in heathrow and
i still want to know what love is.


i want fucking everything. all of it. out of the socket and into my pocket.

Comments

want why doesn't it rhyme with rant

[(Anonymous)]

so much i understand it terrifies me. so many things. use of words. wrapped sentences around little phrases like unexpected presents. i do understand. all too well. all too much, and it frightens me to realize that. my keyboard mubles and i am left sputtering and stuttering. fuck. fuck. fuck.