full of fear and dreaded cubans

[aslant]

what gives?

feh. nobody loves me.



i am going on an expedition for sushi.

Comments

[booshtukka.livejournal.com]

i love you. kind of.

kind of?

[aslant.livejournal.com]

hey!

you're not supposed to say that anymore.

but that's ok. it makes me happy anyway.

Re: kind of?

[booshtukka.livejournal.com]

well, i am "supposed" to do what i want. be happy. it makes me a little happier.

Re: kind of?

[aslant.livejournal.com]

it does make me happy.

it gives my heart a little jumpstart.

Re: kind of?

[booshtukka.livejournal.com]

well, good, i think. be careful with your words, jesse. don't give the wrong impression.

Re: kind of?

[aslant.livejournal.com]

i'm trying so fucking hard not to. don't get me wrong.

it still hurts. and i still feel some impossible thing. this is probably my apetite for destruction, i'm sure, my yearning for angst.

[disregard]

Re: kind of?

[booshtukka.livejournal.com]

disregard. this from the person that deletes and deletes? who obviously can't mean "disregard"?

yearn for angst. fill yourself. i suppose.

Re: kind of?

[aslant.livejournal.com]

yes i do mean disregard. i mean don't trust what i say because i probably have ulterior motives.

i'm not yearning for angst. i'm not filling myself.


i'd like you to be happy, someday.

Re: kind of?

[booshtukka.livejournal.com]

someday. but it's too much to ask for, isn' it?

i can't think of a state of contentedness for me. i don't think there is one.

Re: kind of?

[aslant.livejournal.com]

if you could think of a state of contentedness, then you'd be a lot more content. if you're depressed, it's because it's impossible to imagine yourself otherwise.

there is one. i'm sure of it.

we all need a fastforward button. got to skip these early-twenties depression years...

feh indeed

[kleinekatze.livejournal.com]

i love you jesse.


dur...

Re: feh indeed

[aslant.livejournal.com]

dur?

what are you, english? we're americans, dear heart. we says "duh".