la souffrance
Nov. 2nd, 2001 11:10 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
aslantlurching, unnatural dreams.
jh's mother dies. in the hospital, her father is silent, wan. a small white animal is sent to me with a note from j, saying this is the edge. i just want the edge. just the edge. the edge. edge. i lose it, weep violently throwing things around. but there is no comfort in anything.
i am in a cult. we make music by knocking on a strange wooden and metal apparatus. i am new, i keep screwing it up. i teach a tiny girl to project her voice, my hand on her tiny breathing stomach. a tall dark-haired man who follows me as i lean into him. we lie down in a field. he asks me what is it, i respond there's some barrier here between us. you're close but there's something in the way. clear, troubled eyes.
wind rattling the windows in their sills. woke up late and wrong today, a deep gravitational sleep disturbed by c and j getting ready, those unplaceable sounds that echo in the hall.
jh's mother dies. in the hospital, her father is silent, wan. a small white animal is sent to me with a note from j, saying this is the edge. i just want the edge. just the edge. the edge. edge. i lose it, weep violently throwing things around. but there is no comfort in anything.
i am in a cult. we make music by knocking on a strange wooden and metal apparatus. i am new, i keep screwing it up. i teach a tiny girl to project her voice, my hand on her tiny breathing stomach. a tall dark-haired man who follows me as i lean into him. we lie down in a field. he asks me what is it, i respond there's some barrier here between us. you're close but there's something in the way. clear, troubled eyes.
wind rattling the windows in their sills. woke up late and wrong today, a deep gravitational sleep disturbed by c and j getting ready, those unplaceable sounds that echo in the hall.
