oaths vs. odes

[aslant]

small storm of useless fury, tears, etc last night. i went to bed instead, at eight. this totals 23 hours of sleep in the last 48. woke to dream of x, a veritable reconciliation of limbs & loves; this dream replayed on high speed over and over as i tried to wake up.

this mundane cycle that continues. sad ragefury mixed with intense crushing inner sensation, yielding to a slow decompression. all this because of abandonment, i suppose. the yielding of words up to time.

yards of ink spent. i need a new pen.