stolen time in harvard square

[aslant]

a strange loose-limbed and constant unspoken sensation of having sex all weekend (thanks ak) except there is none, none to be found.

elaborate dreams of hospitals and frantic women and katie and flight. will elaborate monday.

& every time the phone rang i thought it was you.

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strategy is the name of the game.

[aslant.livejournal.com]

no, the jail is unguarded. but it has no door, no exit, no window, no grate. the jail is not a happy place. i would hate to send you there.

no, i would love to send you anywhere, actually. as long as i went, too.

paris sounds very posh. if i moved to paris i could learn french again.

Re: strategy is the name of the game.

[aslant.livejournal.com]

that's funny, my country's market is great right now for translators and programmers. the one and only boss (me) is currently dissatisfied with the employee's (my own) inability to program. unfortunately there is no map to my country and no train and no road and no airstrip. frequently i must travel abroad (my own expedition team) to find what i need elsewhere.

syllables? i have enough trouble with words this morning. if i went to paris i would start talking like this:

no.

yes.

m.

eh.

and so forth. however am i supposed to order up room service if i have lost all language?

Re: roleplay is the name of the game.

[booshtukka.livejournal.com]

LJ is slowly working less. and less.

I would come to your country, but my passport hasn't come yet. and it's secret. and there's no airstrip.

that's how people in Paris speak anyway.

ehhhh...
ahhhh...
tchtchtch.
mmmmmmmm.

room service - you can write down for them. or sound like you're being attacked - and they'll be there quickly.

Re: roleplay is the name of the game.

[aslant.livejournal.com]

yes, it is slow. we're getting cut off. bastard slow servers.

what do they mean when they say tchtch?

actually i'll just put you in charge of telephoning room service.

Re: roleplay is the name of the game.

[booshtukka.livejournal.com]

/me sacrifices more hard drive space to the internet gods.

tchtchtch - I spelt it badly. like - tut tut tut.

ok, I'l call room service. or take you to a restaurant - then we can just point at what we want.

Re: roleplay is the name of the game.

[aslant.livejournal.com]

i'll point at you.

i don't think you're on the menu, though. i'll confuse the already snobby waiters.

Re: roleplay is the name of the game.

[booshtukka.livejournal.com]

if you want me - why are we in the restaurant? restaurants are good foreplay. probably.

Re: roleplay is the name of the game.

[aslant.livejournal.com]

yes they are. it's achingly frustrating to sit across from somebody and watch them. and them watching you. i like restaurants. it makes what happens afterwards even better.

Re: roleplay is the name of the game.

[booshtukka.livejournal.com]

then we should go to a restaurant. would it be hard for you to get time off work?

Re: roleplay is the name of the game.

[aslant.livejournal.com]

maybe. probably. the problem is that if i don't go i won't get paid, which is the root of all this evil. filthy money. technically they could fill the position within a day, especially if my boss is gone right now. but i couldn't leave. rent is due soon. bills are due. stupid life looms up large in front of me, and i beg and duck and plead but i still pay.

hmf. from now on my country will issue no money. the end. only free trade from now on.

Re: roleplay is the name of the game.

[booshtukka.livejournal.com]

I got ALL my bills this morning. but none of them are too nasty, and I can pay them all tomorrow - which is nice.

if I could help, could you visit?

your country sounds good. but I don't have any potatoes OR fish.

Re: roleplay is the name of the game.

[aslant.livejournal.com]

but would i want you to help? no, at least i don't think so. this happens to me. guys get involved with me and then start offering me money. i don't want it to work that way. it's a touching idea, though. what would we accomplish?

we would do a lot of things. we might not fall in love. we might hate each other. i'd have to leave eventually and i might resent ever leaving. or i might resent ever arriving. you might resent me. there are so many ugly possibilities.

in a movie this would work great. i wish i wish i wish.

we can leave both potatoes and fish out of the whole discussion. why do you need potatoes or fish, though? all you need is a passport. and directions, because my country is in the middle of a vast wood.

Re: strategy is the name of the game.

[booshtukka.livejournal.com]

Paris is not posh. it's the only town I know where people speak communicate in syllables, and not words. somewhere else maybe. where they pay through the nose for translators and programmers.

did you receive those attachments I sent before? you never said. feel free to say the book is awful - i know it is really. that's why I never finished it.

Re: strategy is the name of the game.

[aslant.livejournal.com]

ah,

i'd forgotten about the attachments. i started reading the book but didn't get very far before brian and his stupid tickets interfered. i will go look at it later. when i'm not talking to you. it's not awful. it's like walking around invisibly behind you.

Re: strategy is the name of the game.

[booshtukka.livejournal.com]

hmmm, kind of. it gets better the more of it I wrote. 4:20. one hour ten minutes.

tell me a story.

Re: strategy is the name of the game.

[aslant.livejournal.com]

4:20. ha. i always make a wish at 4:20. or 11:11. or 2:22. etc. magic minute.

a story:
once upon a time there was a boy. his name was a. there was also a girl. her name was j. they sat down one day to figure things out, but couldn't get the words exactly right. so they decided to tell stories instead. tell me a story, said a. so j said, once upon a time there was a boy.

no. that's not a good story. it would take me longer to write a better one. i can't think of a good one right now. nothing is quite as interesting and poignant as the story i am living in this precise second.

so you leave at 5:30? that's late. you must start later than we do. or do you have long breaks? the english business day confuses me.

Re: strategy is the name of the game.

[booshtukka.livejournal.com]

a funny story though. we start at 9, and finish at 5:30. and we get an hour for lunch in the middle. not confusing. what about you? I counted hours until it was 9am your morning, and repeatedly checked your lj till you came online.

they've changed all the light orange blinds, for light blue ones. the office feels much cooler.

Re: strategy is the name of the game.

[aslant.livejournal.com]

blue is an excellent color. i think it's my favorite. orange is bad for the digestion, especially orange-colored light. i'm glad they changed it.

i start at 9, hour for lunch (or more, nobody cares) and then home at 5.

i thought you might be checking. that's why i had my sister type in that other entry. and i was reading everything you wrote and all the emails for at least ten minutes before i got ahold of myself and could reply to anything, much less update. i walked this morning to work like fire. i felt invisible.

Re: strategy is the name of the game.

[booshtukka.livejournal.com]

purple is my favourite. purple and green - like we used on our logo at www.webwerxdesign.ltd.uk...

home at 5. jealous.

I was checking, and very pleased when I found the entry. it confused me that you hadn't replied to any emails. but now I know :)

I'm glad you felt invisible on the way to work. then no-one would harass you.

Re: strategy is the name of the game.

[aslant.livejournal.com]

yes, i was unharassable today. i talked to my friend eireann about the whole men-on-the-street thing and she says it's like that for her sometimes too. but it comes and goes. must be some sort of invisible hormone flow. i don't know.

purple is a good color, too.

Re: strategy is the name of the game.

[booshtukka.livejournal.com]

maybe they (or we) can detect when you feel vulnerable.

I like all aquatic colours.

Re: strategy is the name of the game.

[aslant.livejournal.com]

i think you (you collective) can. or i'm projecting something. i spend (waste?) so much time and energy trying not to be vulnerable, and it gets me nowhere.

i like water in general. i like the sea. let's run away to the beach in oregon.

Re: strategy is the name of the game.

[booshtukka.livejournal.com]

maybe, trying not to be vlunerable - is what makes you look vulnerable. you need to not care - which is hard, because you do.

the beach in oregon. I wish I could. well, I could. I wish we would.

Re: strategy is the name of the game.

[aslant.livejournal.com]

i do care. i don't want to disinvolve myself with the world, which is what i would have to do to gain invulnerability (like some sort of spell, i sound like a rpg character).

one day on the train i fell in love with the entire carfull of people. every single one. i couldn't stop grinning. did i write this in my lj already? we were on a bridge going over the charles river and it was so beautiful and bright and there was this one very old chinese man laughing his head off at something, and suddenly i was gripping the rail to not fall down. i wanted to crush everyone in an enormous hug. i was just crushed with how beautiful they all were, and the day and everything else.

i'm a sap, eh?

i wish we would too. our doppelgangers are no dummies--i think they're already there.

i keep thinking of what i would say. i would call my mother on the phone and say, guess where i am? that makes me smile. because even i don't know where i'd be. if i ran away, i mean.